Monday, February 11, 2008

Growing pains

I started looking through old photos yesterday and as much as I love Teagan at 4, I miss the baby she has left behind. Why does it seem so sad that she's not a baby anymore? I know, it's probably way too early to start this wistful reminiscing, but my girl is SASSY and some days I wouldn't be heart broken to go back to that sweet and curious little toddler. Not that we didn't have our challenges then. I just love looking back at her growing and changing, and it is always bittersweet. Here are some pictures of her when she was one year old, eating berries and picking flowers, and when she was almost two years old, with her sweet baby curls.

Tonight while I was cooking dinner I said something to Teagan about learning to cook and she told me she didn't need to learn. I asked her who was going to cook for her when she grows up and lives on her own and she answered "you, mom." I explained that when she gets old enough, she will move out and live on her own and learn how to take care of herself, and she replied "but I LOVE you!" in a somewhat betrayed tone of voice. Like how could I ever think of sending her out on her own? I just wanted to fold her in my arms and tell her she could stay forever, but I know how this growing up business is supposed to work. I sure hope when she's ready to go I've given her all the tools she needs to be the best person she possibly can be.

I know! She's only four!!!

Here we are, back in the present, Teagan and I checking out the ice sculptures in town square park this weekend. It was sooooo cold!! If it weren't so damn cold I probably wouldn't be dwelling on such depressing subjects. Here's to an early summer this year!!!

2 comments:

Unknown said...

Okay it does look really cold there. But I like that last photo a lot, with little Teagan's head peeking through the ice sculpture.

I already miss June as a baby, as ironic as that may be. I can't wait to see what comes next, and I miss all the snuggles of yesterday.

It is great being a parent.

There is a 1/3 chance we'll move back to Alaska come graduation this summer. I promise to keep you posted.

Rhiannon said...

I miss those old days too. That little girl has grown up so much, she's no longer the little baby I spent so much time with.

And Sassy is right! But she is also great now.

Can't wait to have to deal with all this with my own kid.