3 am Internet Searches

This is what kids do to you. Here I am, 3 am, searching the internet for the cause of my baby's horrible barking cough. My internet-based diagnosis is croup. He sounds perfectly fine until that cough. It's awful, and it's keeping me up tonight. That, and the fact that I, too, have a virus that's making me toss and turn.

When you get sick before you have kids, you get to wallow in your own misery, take time off work to nap, and eat whatever you can make in less than three minutes. Once there are kids involved, your own illness takes the back seat (because invariably your kids are sick, too). You go to work even though you feel like you could crawl in a hole and die because you already took four days off to stay home with your first sick kid, and then realize you're going to have to take more time off work to stay home with sick kid #2. You still have to cook meals when you'd rather just eat toast, read books out loud even though your throat hurts, and a nap? forget it! It doesn't help that my husband is out of town for work, since Friday. At least his working extra will help make up for me missing so much work.

But having kids is still worth it for some weird reason that's hard to explain! Because in between his horrible barking cough, he still makes the sweetest chattering sounds when he wakes up, like right this very moment.